How Past Life Experiences Are Shaping Your Present Moment
Breaking The Chains: How Past Life Abandonment Wounds Shape Your Present Reality
Do you feel successful on the outside but empty within? Do you find yourself wearing a mask so convincing that even those closest to you don't see your pain? If you've ever felt like you don't belong—even in spaces where you should feel at home—your soul might be carrying wounds from lifetimes ago.
In a recent spiritual download, I explored the energetic patterns of abandonment wounds that have followed certain souls across multiple incarnations. Let's explore the cards that emerged in this reading and what they reveal about breaking free from cycles established centuries ago.
Initial Oracle Cards: The Core Wound Revealed
The reading opened with five powerful oracle cards that immediately highlighted the soul's journey:
Parent and Child + Explorer + Archangel Gabriel + Abandonment + Success
These cards revealed an energy having a hard time letting go of an abandonment wound from a previous lifetime. This manifested as someone being orphaned, bringing feelings of unworthiness and rejection. To cope, this soul has buried themselves in work across multiple lifetimes.
The Success card showed achievement in past lives—as a scientist and shaman—while still wandering and seeking healing from abandonment wounds.
With Archangel Gabriel, we see many lifetimes of understanding forms of communication outside verbal expression, causing feelings of not belonging, compounding the abandonment wound of losing family structure.
The Timeline and Origin
The Healer card appeared twice, confirming this wound spans multiple lifetimes and continues in the present.
The original timeline was revealed as biblical 12th century, showing a separation between masculine and feminine energies. A masculine figure died in war, leaving behind a widow and child. When the mother later died, the child was put up for adoption—the original source of the abandonment wound that would repeat across lifetimes.
The Persona: A Well-Constructed Mask
The Explorer card was explored further, revealing someone who never feels at home, even in their own space—a persistent feeling of isolation.
Master of Disguise appeared with The Magician (reversed), Two of Wands (reversed), and King of Wands. This combination revealed a persona so well-masked that even family members don't recognize the deep wound of abandonment and disconnection.
The Subconscious Realm
The Moon appeared next, inviting us to look at what lies in the subconscious:
Queen of Cups (reversed): An abandonment wound specifically connected to female figures—a continual cycle of abandonment by feminine energy across lifetimes.
Six of Swords: Creating emotional detachment in relationships as a protective response to abandonment wounds.
Nine of Pentacles (reversed): Though appearing independent, this soul isn't satisfied with being alone. The mask of wanting solitude goes against human nature, creating internal resistance.
The Desire for Connection
Eight of Wands + Knight of Cups: Despite protective walls, this energy deeply desires connection and movement toward love in the current lifetime. They hold themselves back from love and belonging, feeling it isn't deserved.
The Empress: This reveals a soul recognition—believing that recognizing another soul could lead to healing, yet feeling unsure how to achieve this. The reading cautions that external relationships alone cannot heal abandonment wounds.
Spiritual Gifts and Communication
The reading then explored extraordinary spiritual abilities:
The Hanged Man + Death + The Hierophant: This powerful combination reveals mediumship skills and the ability to communicate on a 5D plane. These gifts include telepathic communication and connecting with other timelines.
Judgment + Eight of Cups: This soul is working hard to walk away from abandonment wounds but doesn't know how. The key is facing fears, building relationships, finding balance, and connecting with their tribe—requiring vulnerability and removing the mask.
Cycles of Success Without Fulfillment
Wheel of Fortune + Page of Cups: These cards show the cyclical nature of patterns and fear of stepping out to find true camaraderie.
King of Pentacles + Seven of Pentacles + Three of Swords + Ace of Cups: This combination reveals a belief that one can have either material success OR emotional fulfillment, not both. There's hesitation in offering emotional connection after experiencing heartbreak.
The Path to Emotional Fulfillment
Ten of Cups + Seven of Wands: Desire for complete emotional fulfillment with defensive walls around the heart—fearing vulnerability will lead to pain.
Queen of Wands + The World + Temperance: Wanting to connect with people who inspire creativity, with opportunities for safe passage to connection.
Nine of Swords: Being caught in overthinking and holding oneself back.
Justice + The Star + Eight of Swords: Freedom and healing are possible when breaking free from mental traps.
Ten of Pentacles + Six of Wands: This soul has manifested material success (Ten of Pentacles) repeatedly across lifetimes but feels they should be satisfied with this achievement alone.
Breaking the Cycle
The Star + Six of Cups: This combination shows repeated patterns across lifetimes, raising the question: "Why can't we have both a Ten of Pentacles AND a Ten of Cups?"
The Fool (reversed): Time to embrace playfulness—this is someone who never had the opportunity for a carefree childhood across multiple lifetimes.
The Lovers + Four of Pentacles + Ace of Swords (reversed): Showing the burden of maintaining a rigid persona in the current timeline.
The High Priestess + Five of Wands + The Emperor: Concern about others' judgment if the mask falls away—a repeating lesson across lifetimes.
Final Guidance
The reading concluded with oracle cards offering guidance:
Symbols + Meditate + Lucky + Gratitude + Friendships
These cards give the green light to form new connections and friendships. They confirm that some have a passed-over loved one serving as a spirit guide who wants them to engage in introspection.
The guidance emphasizes practicing gratitude for oneself first and foremost, acknowledging the long journey across multiple lifetimes of hard work and success. Part of gratitude is accepting that soul-level friendships and connections are available—the green light is given to embrace them.
The synchronicity numbers for this reading: 40, 47, 35, and 17.
If this reading resonated with you, consider exploring the full video on my YouTube channel for deeper insights. For personalized readings that explore your unique soul patterns DM me
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I enjoyed this very much. I love the explanations and the sequence of order and what they mean. Very helpful. Jennifer D.
Excellent form of writing and very informative in explaining each card or combos.